And that only tells a tiny part of it. In an attempt to place responsibility for my failures I'd love to suggest that my lack of effort is because of something. In fact that seems like such a great idea I'm going to do that anyway, bullet points would be a good place to start so:
1.it must be my job! Stressful, difficult, tiring and it drains my willpower to the extent that I have little to no desire to do anything other than go home and whimper...
2. It's my wife's fault! Repeated cake and goody baking, how can I avoid all the things I shouldn't devour when she repeatedly throws them in my direction when I get home?
3. It's the kids fault! Harsh? Yes, I suppose it is, but as far as I'm concerned what is it that I want to do whenever I have spare time? Yes that's right spend time with the kids... Of course at their age that tends to involve sweets, ice cream and all sorts of bad things
4. It's all the bad foods that are unavoidable! Pasty's, Burgers, cakes, sweets, crisps... Clearly it's the fault of all those evil companies that make these products fault. They make them so tasty I'm like a crack addict at a free coke party!
Sadly blaming everyone else does nothing to improve my ever expanding waistline, nor does it make me feel better or inspire me. It doesn't help at all. Infancy blaming everyone else actually provides me with a comforting excuse and makes me feel that it's completely fine to forget about my health.
Of course, I do, deep down, understand that I am lying to myself. I do know that I cannot allow this to continue but god it's hard to regain that willpower and make the effort after so long slipping back into old ways. I'm hoping that posting this message will be sufficient to push me back towards the swimming that I have so readily avoided.
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